WHAT SHOULD I DO??

WELL TODAY IS FEEL LIKE I AM A PEACE OF NOTHING. CRISTOPHER AND I THINK ANOUT GIVEN US A NOTHER CHAGE TO GO OUT. WELL HE DIIT AGAIN AND I DONT KNOW IF I CAN JUST LET IT GO. I  LOVE HIM BUT I CAN JUST LET HIM PLAY WITH ME. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO HE WAS HUGING VANESSA AND I DONT KNOW IF I CANT LET GO SHE LOVES HIM AND SHE TELL ME SHE WAS GOING TO FIGH FOR HIM AND I SAID I WOULD FIGH LIKE A WILD ANIMAL BUT I THINK SHE POWERFULL AND I CANT FIGH FOR A LOVE THEM I THINK IT WOULD NEVER WORK THATS JUST WHAT HAPPEN TWO DAYS AGO (monday april 26,2010).